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Your Screaming Kids Are Distracting Me

I was at a holy hour the other night, totally focused and immersed in my thoughts, when from the back of the church came the sound of a wailing toddler.  Just like that, I lost it.  I was completely distracted by some kid who was far too young to be stuck sitting in a church.

And thank God for that.

See, I was totally focused on planning the rest of my night.  I was coming up with a packing list and deciding which posts I could update before I headed out in the morning.  I was thinking about the songs I have on my new smartphone and wondering if the USPS would forward the package I had shipped to the house I was staying at in time for me to get it at the house I was staying at next.  Yeah, I was focused, all right.  Focused on me.

Then that kid started screaming, and I snapped out of it.  I heard the dulcet tones of a toddler tantrum and couldn’t help but thank God for the luxury of silent prayer.  I heard footsteps and a door opening and offered a prayer for the patience of that poor parent.  I prayed for those who were really angry about the disturbance.  I prayed in thanksgiving for the gift of life.

Parents, I know all too well the frustration of taking little ones to Mass.  I calculated this evening (when I should have been praying) that I’ve taken little ones 4 and under to Mass by myself at least 200 times.  So while I’m not a parent, I know the frustration and awkwardness and even shame of that experience.

Case in point: John Paul isn’t so great at first person pronouns.  He refers to himself as “you.”  This was great when he was potty training and announced at the top of his lungs during the Eucharistic prayer, “You awe weawing undewweaw!!”  There were definitely panty line checks all around the sanctuary.

I’ve gotten plenty of dirty looks.  But more often, by God’s grace, I’ve gotten affirmation.  People thank me for bringing “my” kids and compliment me on their behavior.  Once after John Paul threw a particularly loud fit at Mass, an elderly man came up to me and told me it was the holiest sound he’d heard all day.  “He reminded me that I’m alive,” he said with a smile.

But more often than not you don’t notice the smiles.  You notice the rolled eyes and raised eyebrows and dirty looks and you think that at best you’re not making anyone angry.  But that’s not true–at best, you’re making the people around you saints.  You’re pulling them out of their self-obsession and reminding them that being at Church is about emptying ourselves for God and each other.

Prayer is so often just a veil for narcissism.  We talk and talk and talk about ourselves and then slap an “Amen” on the end and consider ourselves holy.  When your kids start screaming, it distracts us from ourselves.  We start praying for you.  Or for them.  We pray for single parents.  We pray in thanksgiving for our grown children or we beg for screaming children of our own.

I was visiting with my grandmother the other day and mentioned that Cecilia shouted stream-of-consciousness for the entire Mass today.  She said, “Oh, do they let children in the church?”  Needless to say, she’s not Catholic.  But it’s an attitude I’ve found from some Catholics.  “Until they’re old enough to sit quietly,” they say, “leave them at home.”  Or maybe “You know there’s a cry room, right?”  As if the Mass is their personal property and they get to decide who stays and who goes.

Jesus embraced children, folks, and so does our Church.  If you don’t want to hear them cry, the solution is not to remove the holy little ones from the church.  The solution is for you to go to the 7am quickie Mass or the solemn high Mass that takes 3 hours.  Find a Mass kids aren’t going to and shut yourself up in that one.

Or maybe offer up your distractions and frustrations for their parents, who are so much more distracted and frustrated than you.  Take this as a sign that God is calling you out of yourself.

Ooh look at her shoes! I wonder how many states have more vowels than consonants. How far is it from here to Maine? I should make a pie this afternoon. 3.14159. What would I even do with a giant mouse suit?

Because if the normal noises of normal children are going to distract me, I was going to be distracted anyway.  By cute clothes or cute men or split ends or whatever1.  And nobody’s suggesting that we wear burqas to Mass or segregate our congregations or require frequent trims.  Unlike most of the thoughts that grab my easily-distracted mind, the screams of your children are a distraction that draw me to deeper prayer.

So take them to the cry room if you want–or stay in the pew.  Lord knows that at many churches if you’re in the cry room you’re practically not at Mass, it’s such a circus in there.  Keep them as quiet as you can however you want to–I won’t judge.  They’re going to be ridiculous and you’re gong to be embarrassed, but taking them to Mass gives them grace, earns you years off of purgatory, and breaks my hardened heart just a little bit.

On behalf of those of us who don’t understand the sacrifices you make to bring your kids to the wedding feast, I’m sorry.  I’m sorry for judging you and being annoyed at you and rolling my eyes and everything else that focuses on me instead of on us.  Your kids are a very important part of us, even–especially–when they won’t stop yelling.

Because yes, your kids are distracting me.  They’re distracting me from my narcissism.  They’re distracting me from the idol I’ve made of worship, making me encounter God as he really is, not as I want him to be.  They’re distracting me from the endless series of irrelevant thoughts that occupy my “praying” mind.

Your screaming kids are distracting me.  Thank you for that.


Meg Hunter-Kilmer is a 20-something Catholic woman, totally enthralled by the Lord, His Word, His Bride the Church, and especially His Body, Blood, Soul, and Divinity in the Eucharist.  After years of serving the Lord as a high school religion teacher, she's set out on a new ministry speaking at youth and adult events around the country and blogging at Held By His Pierced Hands.  She is discerning a vocation to consecrated virginity, responding to a God who's wildly in love with her for no discernible reason. She loves college football, gnocchi, freeze dance parties, and books about princesses.
  • Claire

    Love it! (My son also had the habit of referring to himself as “you”.)

  • I had one who liked to sing in the big echo-y place when everybody was quiet and waiting to hear the bells. Once she cut loose with “do the funky chicken” which sounds quite different in toddler-dutch and with an echo 🙂
    The Lord likes to humble the haughty (like me) and have a good laugh too (at the humbled mom running a toddler toward the cry room).

  • Bounty

    How utterly refreshing…from this mom of a large family.

  • Shirley

    My little brother once started singing “Bohemian Rapsody” during communion…in a small church, before the hymn.

    • Bounty

      “Easy come, easy go…” 😀

  • gladys

    When my son was young I stopped bringing him to Mass. He would not be still and would “whisper” loud and I too got “the stares”. One Sunday while shopping a church member asked me why I was not going to Mass. I explained about “the stares” and I was not listening to the Priest. He said, “you have to get them in when they are young or else you won’t ever.” I went back and while my son was “whispering” loud and I got “the stares” I continued to focus on the Priest even though I knew nothing he said. My son now 21 still goes to Mass and he has never ever given my as problems going to church! I thank God and the man for telling me! No regrets. When I hear one crying or “whispering” I don’t turn toward them. I know what that parent is experiencing.

  • mmb

    Well how incredibly alarming. Why is the atmosphere in church less important than other elements? Maybe Father could celebrate mass in jeans and a sports shirt and we could drink the blood of Christ from plastic cups. So the answer is to send those of us who aren’t making a shopping list in church and with well-behaved kids to detention? Wow.